Today's the Anthem 10K in my hometown.
I'm not there.
I cried when I got the email telling me I'd been deferred to 2019 with no penalty. I cried when I got a text message yesterday evening from a TV reporter who wanted to interview me before the race. But this morning, there are no tears. Just quiet resignation.
I don't know if I will get to run in 2019 either - but I will not give up or go down without a fight. I'm hanging onto those words from Bethany Hamilton - I don't need easy, I just need possible. I'm heading up the gigantic mountain right now - but one day - one day I'm going to race down the other side with the wind blowing in my face and feel like I've been set free to fly again.
