Testimony?

In the course of three days I've had eight people ask me why I haven't shared my personal testimony on my blog. Since then I've had stress-induced writer's block. Big time.

You see - it's not that my testimony would be that difficult to write out. I've done it already. I have it saved on my computer. I add to it as I go through various things in life. It's a work-in-progress, much like each of us.

It's not that it's so terrible that I don't want anyone to know it either. It's your average sinner turning to Jesus and - no - life didn't get easier - it got harder - BUT - now He's in control and I don't have to go-it alone. There's HOPE now.

It's not that I'm embarrassed by it. We ALL have things from our past that we wish weren't there - but I've learned a couple of things. 1 - I am NOT alone in the things I've gone through. 2 - (yes teen girls I AM going to say it again) You have the greatest impact on those you never knew were watching or listening. Someone could "stumble across" my story and be touched/moved/encouraged by it - and I'd never know. That's great. There are young people (and adults) who can (and have) found inspiration through some of the darkest times I endured and share. We all have something to give to those walking through the same types of trials we've already emerged from. 3 - There are far more serious issues out there than some I've dealt with. There are people who have gone through far more ordeals and experienced far more trauma. No matter how "bad" my past may seem - there's always a more difficult story out there. We're all sinners living in a sin-filled world. We all have a past. Sin is sin and is sin. So embarrassment isn't the issue either.

The problem is this. My blogs are visible to everyone - and I intend to keep them that way. Yes, I could put everything out there for the whole world to read, but if it brings hurt, pain or negativity to any of the other people involved in my past - even if I don't name them - I won't do it.

If you want to know, ask. I'll gladly answer your questions. But I won't do anything to bring more pain and suffering to a family that has already gone through so much. Thanks for understanding.