Desperate

As I was driving my little preschool buddy to school we were listening to a local Christian radio station. An old song came on that I hadn't heard in years, but a line from the song caught my attention. The words repeated and I found myself drawn to them - "I'm just as desperate for you now as I was back then, and if I ever should forget remind me once again." 

I can remember clearly the day I invited Christ into my life as Lord and Savior. I was desperate for love. Desperate for acceptance. Desperate for healing. Desperate for belonging. Desperate for answers. Desperate for rescue. I needed Him desperately. I wanted Him more than anything I'd ever desired. I asked myself, "do you still need Him as desperately as you did back then?" 

The answer was a resounding absolutely yes. I have needed Him in every trial, every struggle, every challenge and every battle. I have needed Him to make the accomplishments mean something, to have a reason to celebrate, and to experience things fully. "If I ever should forget remind me once again" - whenever I have wandered or gone astray, something big has happened that pulls me right back to the desperate need for Christ. 

My life has been a series of traumas, some well out of my control and some due to my own human nature. There's no denying that He was there during every fire, every storm and every flood. I could spend years describing how He rescued me time and time again. But, lately I have been able to look back and see Him clearly in the joyous moments, the mountaintops and in the peace of every day. It's easy to say we desperately need our Lord when we are under fire and need protection. Being able to desperately need Him when things are going great is a different level of spiritual intimacy. 

Do you remember the day of your salvation? Do you remember the desperateness you felt and how strong your desire was to know Him? Do you still feel that same desperate need for Him today?